The last time I had the laser treatment was about 6 weeks ago, the usual waiting period between the treatments is 4 weeks so it's been a little bit longer than I would have liked!
So my treatment was at 4:00pm today and I was a little bit nervous because it had been so long since the last treatment, but my face has broken out a lot recently (mostly on the left side of my face which is strange...) so I was looking forward to having it done to see if it would lessen the breakouts!
I'm sure you'll all agree with me that having these treatments is a big deal; allowing someone to not only see your face without make-up but touch it aswell, you build up a sort of bond with whoever does it for you. Well when I got there today I found out that the girl who has been doing my face for the past year had left the company after my last treatment!
The woman who did the treamtent instead was a complete stranger to me, I didn't even know her name! I felt awkward because I didn't know what to say to her, and when she took my make-up off to prepare my face I felt vulnerable because I didn't know what she was thinking about the state of my skin etc. It felt like I was walking in there for the first time.
Obviously, because she has never done any of my treatments before she had no clue about what strength laser I should be having/ how many treatments I have had before so there was a lot of paper fumbling which only added to the nerves. She said that my previous treatment settings were too low and she was going to make the laser stronger! No one can seem to get this laser thing right for me!! I don't want to put anyone off but during the treatment I could literally smell my skin burning; it didn't "hurt", it was bearable, just the whole situation made me feel uncomfrotable.
At the end of the session I realised there were no mirrors in the treatment room so I had to leave the building without seeing my face! This was a big deal for me! I ran to the closest toilet to find a mirror; my face was red and both scars and spots were visible all over so I put make-up on and kept my head down as I walked quickly back to my car.
The whole scenario just made me uncomfortable today, I'm extremely self conscious about my skin and having so many strangers (both in the building and outside) see my skin in that condition got me down. I think that's why it is so important to built up bonds with whoever does your treatments, because they grow to understand your concerns and you then have someone you can trust not to judge you when you are at your most vulnerable.
Hopefully the next treatment won't be so bad.
- Natalie
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