I'm still getting spots; some days my skin looks smooth and I start to get excited thinking "this is it!" and the next day I wake up and i'm covered in new spots and I feel like I'm in a never ending cycle of disappointment.
Today I woke up to an array of tiny spots on my cheeks and jaw.
I have a lot of blackheads on my cheeks and they seem to be developing into tiny whiteheads.
As you can see, my lips are still cracked in the corners. Every day I wake up and open my mouth the brush my teeth and they split down the sides leaving me looking like the Joker in Batman...
I've definitely noticed my hair has been less greasy and last week I managed 3 days without washing it!!! That is unprecedented; before this course of R I was washing it every night and waking up to it being greasy the next day!
That's what makes me worry about my skin when I stop taking R; I've already taken 2 courses and my skin still went back to the way it was before- who's to say it won't this time?? I can't bear to be a 26 year old woman who still has the insecurities of her 16 year old self.
I'm still completely paranoid about my face and the way I look; I scrutinise my reflection constantly and when people are looking at me and I see their eyes flicker across my face I'm convinced they're judging me for being ugly.
I feel bad because there are horrific things going on in the world right now and my problems are so insignificant in comparison, as often as I feel sad I feel guilty because in other ways I am so fortunate.
- Natalie
